I know there are probably quite a few bloggers out there in outer blogness wondering what the hell happened to me. A few months ago I put my blog into restricted mode and yes, I could give access, but there's nothing there -- I removed it all. And no, it's not because I went back to the morg. No way!
I left my house (and my marriage) about 3 months ago and subsequently filed for divorce as I wasn't getting reasonable cooperation in terms of what's best for the children in terms of spending time with me. It's all still in the works, so the disappearance of my blog is about a necessary quiet period that goes with it. There's a chance it wouldn't cause a problem, but with the system already being overly stacked against fathers in this country (and especially my state), I can't take any chances.
I really miss all of you in outer blogness. I didn't realize how much support I was getting from it until it was gone. :( I haven't even been able to keep up with reading blogs, but things have almost settled now where I can go back and try to catch up. Hopefully someday soon some of you will start seeing comments from me every now and then.
If any of you have been following my story closely or were in other ways more closely tied to me, you can ask either SML or Sideon for direct contact information for instant messaging or email. I can't handle a flood, but a few of you who are either are in or were in similar situations would be welcome contacts to me right now as I'm having lots of struggles. Being a single father is far from easy, especially as an agnostic, and I'm constantly doubting myself about my decision that this path can and will be better for me and the kids long term. The doubts have so far not been enough to go back to a failed marriage, but still, it's a struggle.
Thanks to everyone who helped support my blog before and in some way helped me find the strength and self-confidence I had lost, so that I could stand up and do what I felt needed to be done. I hope I can get back to blogging sometime in the near future. I don't want to take the chance until after my divorce is final, but I have no idea when that will be -- hopefully sooner rather than later.
-Mattman (from ramblings of a mattman)
Thanks for giving everyone an update and I hope you find your balance soon. Good luck with getting your life on the track you need it to be on. I have faith in you that you can do this. I always admire people who do the difficult thing in order to listen to their own voice and forge their own path toward improving life and finding happiness.
If anyone needs to contact Mattman, or simply wants to wish him well and offer moral support, email me at firstname.lastname@example.org and I will forward your message to him or give you his email address so you can do so yourself.